I watched everything in my life slowly disenergrate out of my hands.

my boyfriend the one that i thought i loved, my friend disappears

“we should see other people” so he says.

he didn’t get the memo when i say that i loved you forever and you’re the one i want to be with.

Crying became a close friend of mine, dying became a dream to live.

cried til my eyes became swollen shut, screamed until my body went nub, bleed until the world went black.

in that moment i knew being happy was nonexistant for me.

laughters and joy became a stranger as everything i once knew in my life, Shattered.

It’s so hard when you’re the only one that sees the good in people, but no matter what you can’t convince the others that he has a good heart.

what do you do when he gets in trouble for something that he didn’t do?

do you sit there and watch?

or do you cry on your pillow alone every night?

I get that feeling that everything is just falling apart in my life.

your best friend disappears and your boyfriend feels he isn’t happy anymore.

you’re the one that’s stuck in the middle and you can’t do anything but watch it fall apart in your hands and cry later.

the only question that i have left is:

where do i go from here now??